Today was very successful. I finally asked my boyfriend to prom! He said yes! It was a really good day for us though. We hung out all day! First we hung out a little bit at my house, then we headed to the mall but we left early because the clothes there were too expensive, then we went to Lollicup because it was hot and we were thirsty! then we went to Ross, where I contacted my best friend and cousin who were at his house getting the things ready. Once we got to his house it was kind of a fail because my cousin decided to change up the plans and messed a lot of things up. I wanted them to stay in the room to make sure that he reads it out loud and stuff but he just walked outside where we all were and just stood there. He really made me ask the question, “Will you go to Prom with me!?” so we ended up going back inside his room and made him read the things I wrote on the card out loud. My best friend and cousins is going to edit the video. This was such a fail, but I’m still glad I did it. He looked really happy, almost made me want to cry :’)

ahhhhh, I’m asking my boyfriend to Prom tomorrow! It’s kind of late considering prom is this weekend! hehe, oh wells. I’m excited! I hope everything goes as planned. I’m also going to the mall with him to get his prom clothes. :)

Gawd, you’re so fucking annoying. I hate seeing your face now. It makes me mad and kills my day. I avoided you like all day, and yet, you still try to start a conversation with me. I don’t know why you can’t get a clue. What I don’t understand is why you’ll talk mad shit about me and saying things, then talk to me like it’s normal. You’re just making me look stupid and desperate, when in fact it’s not true. I can’t even look at you as a friend anymore. That’s how much you’ve fucked up. No more chances with you. Foreal, I am tired of your bullshit. I’m done. You look so stupid. I wonder how you’ll feel if you found out that the person you’re telling knows you fucking lying you fucking asshole. Gawd, just thinking about you pisses me off! Douche. You’re not worth my time, this will probably be the last post I ever write about you, because I’m not going to let you consume up any more of my time you piece of shit/douche/fucker/asshole/shit talker/fuck face/ughhhhhh.

WITH NO LOVE,
The girl you fucked over.

I just found out you’re going to prom with her! OMG, that’s so funny to me. I don’t know why. Maybe it’s because I didn’t like her to start with. She was kind of rude whenever I played her. Plus she’s FOB! Well, I guess people say you are too. Hhaha, anyways, I wonder how I would feel if I went to prom with you? That sounds like fun, well kind of. I’m not really excited about my prom this year anymore since my boyfriend is kind of killing it for me at the moment. He isn’t that excited and isn’t keeping me updated with the details. Whatever. I hope you have fun with your prom! I can’t wait to see how you look like! Hehehehehehhee, and I sure can’t wait until you see my photos! I know you’ll seee my photos because you have three people’s pages that will be tagged. AWWWWWW YEA.

I can’t believe I added you on Facebook. I don’t know why I even did that. I feel stupid. Like, what the fuck. I want to un-friend you but, that would be messed up. I don’t know why I’m feeling like this. Why am I so meeeh about adding you on facebook!? it’s just facebook. What the hell. I guess I feel stupid because I’ve seen you in person for the past three or so weeks now, and we don’t even talk at all. -____- and I just randomly added you on facebook…. well, it’s your fault! You commented on my photo status. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I understand that you have my partner as a friend and see it from there but, I’m pretty sure you can see that it’s from my profile. I still feel stupid. I even commented on your status saying, “congrats!” on your second place men singles post and you didn’t even reply you jerk. Then I see on the side where you can stalk people, you commented on someone else post. What a jerk. Right now, I don’t like you. LOLLLLLL. You douche.

Oh, my, gosh, words can’t describe how I feel right now. My partner and I won CIF 2012 at SGVBC today! I’m so happy. I feel like things are finally getting back into place. My game has been improving, my relationship has been strengthening, and my school work is getting a lot better within the last couple of days. I’m in a really good mood right now. I just wish my boyfriend was there to witness it all. That would have been great. I like that feeling of when someone is proud of me and says something like, for example, “That’s my best friend!” I don’t know why, I’m weird. It just makes me feel good about myself. Someone being proud of me for something I work so hard for. Also, while I was playing my games my coach was really nice, happy, and very supportive. I honestly, could not ask for a better coach. I’m so glad that he came to coach my school. I don’t think I can be where I am today without him. There are other people that deserve some recognition for my success, for instance, my cousin. He introduced me to this wonderful sport. He’s always been there for me, training me, keeping me on point with my shots, just everything. I’m glad that even though he’s not a high school player anymore, he’s willing to take some time and train me. I remember feeling really happy when he said he wanted to cry when I lost to a girl in singles during Moore League 2012. Besides that, I feel super great. Prom is coming up, senior activities, banquet, and graduation! So many things to get done, let’s not procrastinate and finish off this year strong! I feel a bit of confidence through my veins right now. I hope that’s a good thing.

I hate when people say they’re stressed and when I try to explain that I’m feeling the same way they just completely ignore me and continue to do whatever they fucking please.

I don’t know how I feel right now. I’m not mad because it’s not your fault, but I’m not happy neither. You text me every morning telling me how you feel, kind of, and whenever I try going to talk to you or wait for you to contact me you take forever. I need my sleep too. I need to be able to go to sleep hoping you’re not mad at me for wanting to sleep. I want us to talk about how we both feel but you’re timing is just too off for me. Can you understand that I’m stressed about all of this stuff layed on me right now? It’s not helping that you’re feeling a certain way and can’t talk about it because we both just do not have the time right now. It hurts me every morning waking up to a text message that just kills my morning. It’s bad enough I have to wake up to go to school. I’m not blaming you nor trying to make you feel bad. I’m just tired. I’m tired of people expecting me to do things. You’re my freedom and escape from all of this, yet, you’re becoming one of my stresses. I don’t want this sadness growing inside of you. I know it’s eating you up. I want to talk about it as much as you do, but please, schedule me in some time. My time. Time where we can both compromise. Can you do that for me?

This is so weird, yet so funny. I don’t know why I’m getting giggly when you’re brought up. It’s just funny to me. I don’t know why I find you cute. It’s very rare for me to find a guy cute, and that’s the truth. You’re different for some reason. You caught my eye, and I’m still wondering how that happened. I’m excited to see your face next week. Just to see it. That’s it. No communicating, no physical activity, just to be able to search for your face. I hope this isn’t weird. Hehehehe.

You’re making my life complicating. I mean, we were nothing serious or anything. We’ve always been friends. That’s why I don’t get why you’re acting like this. You have a girlfriend and I have a boyfriend. All of this is happening so fast. I mean, it’s kind of nice but as the same time I often question myself if you ever felt something for me.